You lied

You lied as you lyed next to me
I lyed in your arms You lied in my ear
telling me just what I wanted to hear
you lied as you lyed next to me

you ripped out my heart torn me apart
you showed me off I played the part
promised me I was the only girl

you lied with your eyes ,words and smile
yet some how you were driving me wild
you lied with those hateful hurtful eyes

using weakness pain and fear
knowing that I would always be near
told me you loved me together wed be

But lied as you lyde next to me
lied in ear saying I love ya dear
Ill always be here
well you lied as you lyed next to me

I'm not lying you'll never lye next to me

another song

send your angels down and close to me
helping me get by set my heart free
wondering why this happend to me
what more pain could there be

dissmissing the pain, hate and fear
holding back, still fell a tear
without showing weakness and stress
not ever feeling good but worthless

ashamed of whats been done
being abused, and used by one
drop to my knees and cry some more
why would you treat me like this for

deep in my heart I know its wrong
thats why im writing this song
to undo the mess i was in
It was hard to forgiver them

they didnt realize what they did to me
beat down and sexually assult me
to feel unloveable and worthless
never to be able to hear them confess
the wrongs they have done always will
deep in my heart the empty ness I fill

I know its wrong
thats why im writing this song
to undo the mess I was in
to help me forgive those men

to undo the mess I was in
now thanks to GOD I forgive them

love me baby

Love me baby

standing in the door way
waiting to hear you say
I want you I need you always
to be my ,be my baby

holding me close and tight
staying in your arms tonight
you whisper in my ear
what I want to hear

I love you...............
baby I love you
Im so glad were together
through sunshine n stormy weather
I love you baby I do

not even a doubt in my heart
that this is the perfict place to start
you and me and me with you
I know its my dream come true

I love you ........
baby I love you
im so glad we are together
through sunshine n stormy weather
i love you baby I do
hope you love me tooooooooooo

WHY CRY ( a song I wrote )

Why Cry

Time moves so slowly
I wish I could sleep
and leave you out of my mind
this moment I weap

But why cry
you dont deserve this
satisifaction you get
from all this pain
what do you gain
why cry

yeah you hurt me
but why should I cry
I need to try
to put this pain behind me

so why cry
wipe these tears from my eyes
becuase I survived

now I am stonger
got ahold of me no longer
so why should cry

why should I cry
u dont deserve the
satisfaction you get this
so Im not gonna cry
no im not gonna cry

So this is my first official blog like ever well myspace doesnt really count. forwarning though I cant spell worth a crap lol so good luck in reading. I mainly opend this blog to get better at my typing and to put some stuff out there you know my thoughts on life my songs and poems I have written and just things bout me. so this is kelli and If you are intrested n my blogg great if not thats cool too I know this one is kinda lame but hey its the first one give me a break.

lets see what to tell you about me........

so as I said my name is kelli for those of you who didnt already know that. I just recently graduated from Louisville school of massage and am worrking on my studying for my certification test so I can start practicing!!! I am also a singer I love singing and have been working on some writing lately wich as I mentioned earlier I will be posting some of my songs I am working on and i want to know what you all think. I have a account on youtube of me singing and not alot of people have really even looked at it I dont think wich is kinda dissapointing. That is another reason for the blogging I want to add it to my accont on there so my lyrics are up there. I also do balroom dancing!!! slasa and tango are basically my favorite but I love it all. mainly I am a very well rounded person I love doing alot of stuff and love God and my family and my friends and my amazing boyfrined Chad. He is the man of my dreams . most of my songs so far are sad and bout men who have mistreated me but the love songs are his to him and about him. he hasnt even heard em yet. well for now I amlogging off and I hope that you enjoy my bloggs I just need another way of venting and like I have said getting my thoughts out there.